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Boys Of Summer
02:40
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head wrestling
my dad outside the blockbuster
smashing our skulls at incredible speeds
loving that everyone’s watching
2003,
watching the iraq war on tv
alone silently,
to drown out the noise of family fighting
i always wonder if i’m destined to hurt someone
i worry nothing that i do is really good for the world
but i lie, lie, lie, lie
and i like to lie
bashing my head against the wall
the boys of summer are no more
but deep inside, i’ve always known
the boys of summer never were
walking past the blockbuster
now, it’s just a vacant lot
all of my memories feel made up
maybe, but i still remember
2005
i watched the virginia tech massacre
on a rental tape intermixed
with pictures of me as a little kid laughing
my old best friend just went to jail for killing someone
i know that nothing that i do makes me responsible
but i feel like i left him behind
bashing my head against the wall
the boys of summer are no more
but deep inside, i’ve always known
the boys of summer never were
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my head is glued to my clock radio
they're chatting up the freaks on a late paranormal show
scared for my momma to come home
bruised and broken as every night before
i'm begging for the bright lights of UFOs
to wash away the pain of her battered bones
an explosion rings over my stereo
trucker calling in started dozing on the road
crashed into a woman limping her way home
mom had a closed casket funeral
i'm begging for the bright lights of UFOs
to wash away the pain of her scattered bones
the bright lights come to save me,
blind me,
take me back before she had to go
i’ll stay inside the lights so
nothing ever hurts
in the lights, we won a million
you left your late shift for good
i know this isn’t real
but now nothing ever hurts
nothing ever hurts
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Nikki
03:39
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nikki, where are you when i need you?
i miss you more than ever before
i saw your body in a casket wearing clothes i’ve never seen you in before
nik, you still believe in jesus?
like the way we did when we were kids?
yeah, i’m not sure if I still do, but i’m not sure I ever did
and i wonder if I could have helped you feel a little bit better
i thought that getting older would help you feel a little bit better
nikki, i could’ve been there for you
but i never know what to say
i guess that you must have been joking when you said that you were doing okay
nik, you still believe in jesus?
like the way we did when we were kids?
yeah, i’m not sure if I still do, but i’m not sure I ever did
and i wonder if I could have helped you feel a little bit better
i thought that getting older would help you feel a little bit better
when i was five we used to fight these made up aliens in our backyard
but you were a little older than me, and as we grew up, you told me that they didn’t exist anymore
that was when i first felt like i was getting old,
i couldn’t see all the magic in the world anymore
and we still remained close for a couple more years,
but slowly diverged in what we were interested
you stopped going to church
so i stopped going too
spent more time in your room alone
i didn’t think you were happy because you didn’t seem happy
but i didn’t know how to help
if i picked up the phone last friday right when you called in the middle of the night
it was weird and i didn’t know why you would call
plus, i was hanging out with friends i hadn’t seen in a while
but i should have picked up the phone
i should have picked up the phone
we could’ve talked, caught up and sorted things out
was i just scared, or did i just not care enough?
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
nikki, i’m sorry
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some days i pray i can somehow save
those kids from my middle school classroom
can i go back through time to warn all the guys
about everything that’s going to happen?
i will look into their eyes
faces i can barely recognize now
boys i haven’t seen in years
kids that society made disappear
but i’ll say everything is going to be fine
your dreams are gonna go how you planned
even to the kid that died
i’ll say everything is gonna be so alright
so alright
gotta talk to my old pal nev
shoulda known that he would end up in jail
black bags underneath his eyes
big pit stains, beat out polo
he lived next to my best friend
so we made a couple dumb youtube stunt videos with him
always called himself an idiot
but was a dirtbiking allstar since he was a little kid
got distracted in school
but only when his parents couldn’t afford his medication
one of the smartest people i knew
he was just born into a tough situation
but i’ll say
everything is going to be fine
your dreams are gonna go how you planned
keep on riding that dirt bike
and you’re gonna win every championship
everything is going to be fine
your dreams are gonna go how you planned
even to the kid that died
i’d say everything is gonna be so alright
everything is going to be fine
your dreams are gonna go how you planned
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